The week before last I got the children ready, packed some snacks and drove to A&E. I became extremely ill whilst there and they put an IV in, thankfully the children got to play in a great toy area next to my bed whilst we waited for my husband. A few hours later I was allowed home. The next day I was back at hospital as I was getting worse. I could barely walk. It was a noisy busy Friday night at the emergency ward and while I was lying on a bed being poked, tapped, prodded by doctors, I smiled as I silently prayed – “What ever happens now, what ever path my life takes – I am yours”. Such wondrous peace fell onto me. The peace that surpasses all understanding. There is no better place to be than in his care. I was so weak with pain but so safe in his arms. We have a wonderful Father who cares for us, cares about every last detail, knows our fears and worries even before we are able to express them. Every circumstance becomes joy filled when we depend on him. Life will throw us curveballs, ordinary Thursday mornings may lead somewhere we weren’t expecting, we may get blindsided by bad news but when our full trust is in Jesus then it is all joy; his warmth, his comfort, his presence, his love is awesome! It astounds me every single day. I have been making good recovery from a kidney infection and have been marvelling about the words of Psalm 23, because lying helpless on that hospital bed, I truly was lying in green pastures, I was being led beside still waters and my soul was being refreshed.
“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7