Made to Praise

The last ten days has seen us go to A&E twice, 2 emergency doctors appointments and I had my long awaited maxillofacial appointment which was great news (the bone in my affected jaw now looks even better than the healthy side). As one child recovered from a chest infection, my other daughter came down with one. My husband then got struck with a virus. I also had a flashback yesterday, my first in 2 years and it was so much more positive than my previous one.

Through it all my heart keeps leaping with gratitude. I feel we are all resting in this warm blanket of goodness.

Walking in a hospital corridor last week, a tremor of fear rose in me and my helpless heart leaned into the Lord. Fear was extinguished on his words “I’VE GOT YOU”. Such peace, wondrous peace. I’m so thankful for his heart bursting, soul igniting, truly unconditional love that is equal for every one. I will never be able to get my head around this kind of love, steady and unfailing.

“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” Isaiah 43:


The week before last I got the children ready, packed some snacks and drove to A&E. I became extremely ill whilst there and they put an IV in, thankfully the children got to play in a great toy area next to my bed whilst we waited for my husband. A few hours later I was allowed home. The next day I was back at hospital as I was getting worse. I could barely walk. It was a noisy busy Friday night at the emergency ward and while I was lying on a bed being poked, tapped, prodded by doctors, I smiled as I silently prayed – “What ever happens now, what ever path my life takes – I am yours”. Such wondrous peace fell onto me. The peace that surpasses all understanding. There is no better place to be than in his care. I was so weak with pain but so safe in his arms. We have a wonderful Father who cares for us, cares about every last detail, knows our fears and worries even before we are able to express them. Every circumstance becomes joy filled when we depend on him. Life will throw us curveballs, ordinary Thursday mornings may lead somewhere we weren’t expecting, we may get blindsided by bad news but when our full trust is in Jesus then it is all joy; his warmth, his comfort, his presence, his love is awesome! It astounds me every single day. I have been making good recovery from a kidney infection and have been marvelling about the words of Psalm 23, because lying helpless on that hospital bed, I truly was lying in green pastures, I was being led beside still waters and my soul was being refreshed. 

“And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7