Hello! Welcome to my blog. I have wanted to start a blog for such a long time but always came up with many excuses not to, some being – not enough time, nothing interesting to write about, rusty grammar skills, I prefer reading other people's blogs, everyone's doing it and most of all because I am probably one of the most guarded and private people that ever existed, sharing so much about myself absolutely terrifies me. But I'm 34 years old for goodness sake, it's about time I came out of my shell a bit. To be honest my first post began as an Instagram caption that went on for far too long so I decided to continue writing it as my first blog entry. My name is Christine. I'll probably write mostly about life as a mother to three young children. Maybe a bit about married life. Lots about print designs, handmade goods, children's crafts, chocolate and cake. We'll see! I hope you enjoy my posts.
Mountains. We all face them at various points in life. How we choose to climb these mountains will make the difference in how much we enjoy the difficult journeys.
Most of my life has been a series of treacherous mountain ranges, I’ve wearily travelled through the black valleys of depression, faced the frightening jagged edges and avalanches of PTSD, the sweeping storms of self destruction, the fog and mist of abandonment and numerous blizzards of grief. My problems governed me, ruled me with fear, held me hostage, dictated how I lived and convinced me the best I could ever have was to work on myself to be able to manage my pain for the rest of my life. What a self-centred life sentence! But the wisest of man or darkest of demons can not contend with the supreme power of our Lord.
When we stand at the foot of a mountain, we beg for it to be got rid of or we plead for a way around it. We tend to limit God by our limited understanding. Impatient for answers. We ask why a righteous, powerful, loving God allows us to go through these terrible times. But our Almighty God doesn’t move our problems out of the way because he IS mighty. He shows us he is by safely, joyfully and peacefully leading us through them. When we put our trust in him, these difficult journeys allow us to experience his awesome power. A power that is far greater than can be described by human words.
It’s often these difficult times that break down our barriers and leave us so helpless that they push us to go from depending on ourselves or others to depending solely on him. When we open our hearts to know Jesus, not only in part with our problems but trusting him with our whole lives, we are set free. He freely gives us the fullness of life. He takes our burdens, extinguishes our worries, he shows us the footholds, pitches our tent, shields us from the storms, provides an abundance of healing and comfort, we can rest always safe and warm in his unfailing love.
God absolutely delights in every single one of us. He wants nor needs absolutely nothing from us. Love is not earned, it is freely given. He will never let you go, he will never leave you and he will always carry you through the storms.
It’s been nearly two months! So it turns out that having three young children is actually quite a lot of work. I’ve had lots to write about but never seemed to dedicate enough time to type past the first paragraph. Our youngest went through a little phase of waking up at 4am for an hour which left me quite foggy headed during the day. Our 2&4 year olds have come up with a new song that they love shouting whilst jumping on our bed, before their evening bath. It goes like this “We got energy! We got energy! We got energy!” I’m usually crawling up the stairs and finding myself lying on the landing for a few minutes while my 11 month old excitedly pats me on the head.
I got my first parking fine too! I took the girls “shopping”, we very rarely go to the shops so it’s always an exciting day out. I gave our eldest two the first letters of the shops we needed to go to, they love spotting letters in shop signs. I even managed to buy a top, a smart one! (It wasn’t just a case of buying one that I wouldn’t mind getting banana mush on). We chased seagulls, ate sandwiches and tried on anything that was pink and glittery. Just as we were about to leave I realised I’d dropped our baby’s hat (one that belonged to my first baby), so we retraced our steps but didn’t find it. We had parked in a quiet carpark (which I had always thought was part of the shopping centre) turns out there are two separate shopping places and there is a limited time customers can park there (funny how the signs with little black writing never seem noticeable until after a letter comes in the post and you go and check!). The fine was three times more the total spend of our trip!!! Luckily they took a bit off for early payment. I think we’ll stick to days out having picnics and picking wildflowers.
Spring is just so beautiful and we have had some lovely blossom fragranced walks. We randomly chose a spot on a map to drive to and ended up at Blean Woods, we had so much fun exploring and getting lost. Feeling the wonderful warmth of love Jesus pours out to all has made me appreciate nature with a childlike wonder all over again, it’s all just so perfect. The wind through the trees, the perfect structure of a kiwi fruit, the vastness of the ocean, the intricate pattern of the iris in my children’s eyes, it’s so breathtaking and powerful, full of peace, just like God’s love.
I have had time to do a little illustration that I would like to give away for free. It’s one of my favourite verses from the bible. I can’t tell you the amount of times I have been in tears for so many different reasons, praying desperately and wondering if God really was listening, and if he was why wasn’t he just sorting it out for me! The more we draw closer to Jesus, the more we trust and grow our relationship with him, he lets us know his plans for us. His plan is ALWAYS perfect, with perfect timing and ALWAYS a perfect solution and with a powerful comfort that is breathtaking. Problems and worry can really get on top of us, stop us sleeping, interfere with relationships, make us ill with stress at times. Jesus wants ALL our worries, wherever we are, sobbing on the kitchen floor, lying in bed at night, crying in the toilets at work, at our desk, on the bus, he is listening and waiting with open arms for you to just ask. Love is always whole hearted. When we give our whole hearts and worries to him and depend on him with everything we have he NEVER EVERfails us.
Please email me with your delivery details if you would like me to send you this print for free (30x30cm frame not inc.)